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Wasted

Wasted

Poetry published by P.S. I Love You on September 8, 2019

Short Stop: Two Things

Short Stop: Two Things

L.C. Hill My friend, who is intimately knowledgeable on the subject, told me doctors have six minutes after someone dies to harvest a heart before it’s too late to be good for someone else. Two things: When you break, act quickly to make sure your…

Short Stop: Pages

Short Stop: Pages

L.C. Hill

I open a new book, and I immediately begin to fan through all the pages and listen to them snap away from each other. I watch the words go by in a blur like those movies I used to make on a pad of paper when I was a child. I’d hold the end of it with my thumb, the images moving as one, revealing an entire story one page at a time.

I open it in half, and then in thirds, and then in fifths, bending it open and stretching its rigid spine until it loosens up. I run my hand down the middle, both sides of the book on the palm of one hand. I run it over and over on the pages at each fraction until it is soft, until it doesn’t take so much to open it, and my hand burns a bit from the friction on my skin.

I force it to close after forcing it open, and I push it so that it will lie flat again—like it hasn’t felt the air on its pages now, like those pages haven’t been changed by my touch. It will never lie flat again. I hug it tightly to my chest to feel the bulk of it, the bulk that’s permanent from being made un-new.

I realize I do the same with people.

Short Stop: Given the Choice

Short Stop: Given the Choice

L.C. Hill I feel sorry for the man who ends up as my cosmically chosen soulmate. It certainly wouldn’t be someone’s choice without the fates interfering. I’m scatterbrained, I lose things. I don’t complete thoughts because I’m always on to the next one. No one…

Short Stop: Never Any Such Thing

Short Stop: Never Any Such Thing

L.C. Hill Pedal. Pedal. Pedal. Pedal. Pedal. My head hangs and I focus on the road no more than three feet in front of me. If I just make it three feet at a time, I’ll make it over and over again. I mistakenly look…

Short Stop: This is Sunday

Short Stop: This is Sunday

L.C. Hill

There’s a place in between peace and loneliness. I linger there. There is nothing unhappy about this place.

My dog hangs out there with me. We sit on the couch together. I drift off to sleep sometimes. So does he. More than I do. Often my foot is tucked near his. His eyes flutter open briefly as I wrap my toes around his tail. Then they close again.

There’s sunshine with occasional rain. Not thunderstorms. There’s just the patter of drops on the window air conditioner and a temporary darkening of the concrete. But that dries in the heat, even if the sun can’t push through the clouds.

Time moves slowly there, and I dream of what’s next. I tell him what the plans are. He briefly taps his tail on the floor at my words. I type a bit. He chews on his bone. He sits next to his bowl and takes his time with each bite. He has never been one for hurrying a good meal. We are the same in that way. We are the same in a lot of ways, but his patience—with me, with how slowly the earth rotates on its axis—has always run deeper than mine.

The sun sinks. I’m not ready for it.

This is Sunday.

Short Stop: Polaroid Moments

Short Stop: Polaroid Moments

L.C. Hill He called them Polaroid moments. He said they were snapshots. Not the lifetime of memories of a person, but the moments that stand out to you when you look back on a lifetime. My best friend’s father-in-law reflected on the moment his son—her…

Short Stop: The Airport Bar at 6:47 a.m.

Short Stop: The Airport Bar at 6:47 a.m.

L.C. Hill 7 a.m. is too early to get served alcohol at the airport. I order a drink at 6:47 and wait. I rip a piece of bacon off the strip in my hand. The man across the bar watches me. He does not drop…

The Next Place

The Next Place

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What You Do

What You Do

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